sumthing didnt feel right this time around..hurm..i dont feel the same excitement... i know sumthing is bothering me but i dont know if i should tell.. i gave fake smiles, coz i didnt feel like smiling... i answered simple coz i dont feel like talking... i followed instructions to avoid confrontations...
im tellin u i am not ready for raya..maybe ready but not in the mood to celebrate it... im glad ramadhan is over, but still its sad to leave ramadhan...like what people use to say, will we still be there for the next ramadhan?...
maybe its just the mood swing from the last ramadhan thingy which actually bothers me..but there are sumthing else... plus the last day of ramadhan is always the hardest one... u get tired, hungry and gloomy or grumpy easily during the last day.... the other stuff that bothers me, maybe i'll just keep it to myself fro the time being...
so its raya 2moro...wishing all slamat hari raya.... from the deepest part of my heart, im asking for forgiveness for any of my wrongdoings, and anything i did that actually bothers or annoys any of u....
so in short,: selamat hari raya,a maaf zahir dan batin...
counting the days where i will be celebrating raya in the penisular for the second time...
yes, the second time..eheh.
really miss my frens back home in miri actually..
so this time raya without me la u guys ooh..
but it makes no difference anyway rite?? ehe~
u know what, im really sick of the political issues in the country now.. even close to raya oredi and the attention for this political stuff was still out and about...
i really wish and hope for a better news to be aired if they still wanna air this political matter u know.. but up till today, ergh, juz cant explain but i guess people undertands what im trying to say..
ok ok..am cooling down now..i skipped class on wednesday..yes, the whole day...but i came for design class on thursday, but just kept myself at the corner still messing around with the butter paper while organising the spaces for my library design.. and today, its my first time bawak my motosikal to pj.. hahaha
i was already at the bus stop at 10.30 when my brother called and told me that i can bring my mtrcycle back to pj..
hehe..its kinda scary so i really keep it safe..
so safe was a better word to cover that i bawak it real slow...hahahahaha
sampai rumah my brother tegur ;
"ya baruk,sampe juak bepeloh-peeloh nya mbak moto"
traslation;
"ai,takkan bawak moto pun ko brpeluh-peluh kot?"
excuse me, it was hot ok...an im wearing a jacket..mesti la bepeluh..heheheh
tapi memang nervous pun...theres just so many cars u know!!! people starts going back to their kampung already.. cant wait to go baring-baring on kl roads on raya day..hahahah people says i can do that what..ahaha..maybe will snap some photo of an empty kl..ehehe
i guess i have post a long entry here..ehehe...k lah..blog again later... have so many to tell since i have been busy for the last few days..
wwwoooooooooooooo..its actually monday now.. have to start now wit my design...hurm...have to change a few here and there... and prof hassan wants to see me today...hurm..carik idea first laa..hehehehe....as an excuse to keep surfing ey..heheheheh...hey, people, pls kick me anywhere so that i'll start sumthing...ergh, the draughting table is soooo not tempting rite now
i,ve answered similar tagged question u know..but wataheck, here goes:
1. If your lover betrayed you, what will your reaction be? -do nothing, but i will sure blame myself for having that kind of girlfren..
2. If you can have a dream to come true, what would it be? -all the respect in the world
3. Whose butt would you like to kick? -all the stupid politician who creates this political mess in the country now!
4. What would you do with a billion dollars? -my family are my priority...build a house for my parents, buy a car for my siblings, then shower myself with all the luxury in this world...oh, go travel!!!is it enuff???dont think so though
5. Will you fall in love with your best friend? dont think so,...coz i dont have any..ahah!
6. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone? i,ve answered this before..[btw, its both]
7. How long do you intend to wait for someone you really love? i dont like waiting...just for the record..
8. If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do? go find somebody else of course..eheh
9. If you like to act with someone, who will it be? -julia roberts,sandra bullock,keanu,jenifer garner and jenifer aniston...locally,cant think of any..but i can tell u the hot ones..heheh..u know i know la...heheh....
10. List down a few things you'd do before you die. -hurm...sempat to fullfill my parents wishes of course...and tobat nasuha..hahah...im a sinner too u know..ehehehe...who's not one rite..
11. How would you see yourself in ten years time? -hurm, that means when im 32??i have my own house..a bmw x5...adn a wife..maybe..ahahaha
12. What's your fear? the one n only la...
13. What kind of person do you think the person who tagged you is? maiza? silent killer..hahahah
14. Would you rather be single and rich or married but poor? i've answered this too...yerps,its single and rich
15. What's the first thing you do when you wake up? gosok my eyes
16. Would you give all in a relationship? -not all..i've set my limits...and boundaries..
17. If you fall in love with two people simultaneously, who would you pick? i dont think i'll fall in love with 2 person at one time
18. Would you forgive and forget no matter how horrible a thing the someone has done? as i answered before...yes..i do forgive, but when i forget, u'll be gone..totally erased from my life..get it? i dont know u, havent heard of u, didnt know what u did to me, i dont think i've known u before....yes, sumthing like that
19.Do you prefer being single or having a relationship? both have its pros and cons...cant think of which one that i prefer now..
hurm....im going back to shah alam after break of fast later... n yes, im still at my brother's place... i've been a very lazy person since friday..eat sleep and go jalan2...thats all i do..but tonite, i have a library on my shoulder..yups, design it is...i wonder who will actually be in my studio tonite...i've gained a few kilos i guess since friday..eheh....so, im sure they will notice..eheheh...
im thinking on skipping all my classes this week but just dont have the guts to do it...hey, im a gud fella, which explains why im a blank blurr and boring person...hahahah...
yesterday, they are many stories of me when i was little being brought up my brother and my parents...heheh..its fun even though there are a few stories that are quite embarassing... maybe i'll tell a few later..but not the embarassing ones of course..
i hear my bro told my mum that aunty salamiah,..as in salamiah hassan, will be having break of fast with my parents and my brother tomorrow...im sure my mum will cook yummy yummy food...heheh..but im not gonna be there!!! ahahh..whos gonna finish all the food ???ehehehe...
maybe i'il update sum more later tonite..with maiza's laptop la maybe...hehehe..when i got back to shah alam la kan..
yes..im goin home after this...lepas solat jumaat la of course..
im kinda confuse rite now coz my post date is kinda late by one day...i realised my post 'after the crit..', it was suppose to be on thursday, buy my posts date is on wednesday...so if u see my psoting for today is on thursday, its actually friday...thats y i mentioned am gonna go back after solat jumaat ok?
maiza!!help!!...hahah
maiza is actually my so-called blog technician..hehehe..oh btw, maiza, esok ade klas kan??hahah,org nak balik umah lpas nie..jgn jeles eyh...kekekek.....oh, n can speak my language now eyyy!!??
spooky yet kinda cool..ahahhah
yups,..one of my reason to go back home today is becoz my mum and dad is here..theyre gonna stay here till ray n that means i will not be in Miri this time around...
but i cant be all lazy this weekend..have the loose spaces to tightens..hurm, am talkin about my design that is..if u read my earlier blog on after the crit....coz Ar. hassan wants to see me again on monday to see the the spaces..hurm...but at least im gonna be eating sumthing geewd for bukak puasa..ahha...yes, its my mum's cooking that i missed...ahahah...and shes responsible for topping up my weight and making me fatter all the time...hahah...but wudaheck, as long as ur happy, ur on top of the world..!!
im numb, speechless and totally down............. got a very bad flu and go tissue scavenging from maiza...
then there was the crit session.. i have my site plan...i have my floor plan... i have an elevation....i have my concept... space zoning and all..working models....... and what i get was, "i expected sumthing better from u kassman~" so i guess that's why it was called critique session...... hurm... i was told that my spaces were loose...i didnt even realise it... hurm, have to redefine those so called loose areas.... coz theyre the lecturers and they must know best rite....
hurm, read wani's blog while i layan prasaan after the crit session just now... bout tagging things in the blog post... does that mean i have to re-post it?? macam friendster already....hehe..but i think i'll do it.. cant think of anything better to do rite now anyway.... i ran from a talk by sum invited cladding material suppliers at the lecture hall... u kno la, u have a running nose kan, of coz la ur gonna run and catch it back..hahah...so thats explain why im in the studio blogging and melayaning my perasaan while all my, hurm maybe not all, my coursemates are at the lecture hall now...
2. Your relationship with him/her is: friends....a cool one..coz i owez mintak tolong from her
3. Your five/ten impression of him/her: wani: 1)kecik. 2)weirdo 3)fun 4)manja 5)silent
4. The most memorable thing he/she had done for you: i dont know but i remembered u gave me a cat punya soft toy....oh, and a fridge magnet of hulk from singapore...
5. The most memorable thing he/she had said to you: wani loves this word : bleh..bleh bleh...? in the worst and most annoying way that u can never imagine
6. If he/she become your lover, you will: knak blasah alem... but i guess im gonna be happy coz wani ada rockband on ps3..hahhaha
7. If he/she become your lover, thing he/she has to improve on will be: stop sayin bleh bleh bleh
8. If he/she become your enemy, you will: be sad.
9. If he/she become your enemy, the reason will be: i culik all her ducks
10. The most desired thing you want to do for him/her now is: mintak gamba of pustaka miri..~rings anything wani??
11. Your overall impression of him/her is: fun
12. How you think people around you will feel about you?: blank blurr and boring?
13. The characters you love of yourself are: hurm, maybe that im the one who forgive and forget..but when i say forget, i will forget everything... or in my case, forgive, then erase it from my memory...hahah...paham paham sendirik la if u can get what i mean.~
14. On the contrary, the characters you hate yourself are: pemalas like hell
15. The most ideal person you want to be is: -
16. For people that care and like you, say something to them: keep on caring
17. Pass this quiz to 10 persons that you wished to know how they feel about you: dont feel like it.....still having the post-crit-syndrome
2nd TAG
01. Would you fart inside an elevator? i guess so...only that when im alone
02. What will you do if the person you like doesn't like you back? - just accept it as it is laa
03. Miss Piggy + Kermit the Frog = OTP? - still not getting it?
04. Are you confused as to what lies ahead of you? - who doesnt
05. What's your ideal lover like? - like im gonna tell~
06. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone else? - both
07. If the person you like does not accept you, would you continue to wait for them to change their feelings? - nope..
08. If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do? - make donno
09. Is there anything that has made you unhappy recently? - Yyes...crit session
10. What do you want most in life? - skema gila soalan~
11. Is being tagged fun? - nope...bu at least it kills some time
12. If you find out that your best friend is going out with your boyfriend/girlfriend, how would you react? - ehem2
13. Who is currently the most important person to you? - mumdadbrosisniecenephewscousinsfriends
14. What kind of person do you think the person who tagged you is - she sengaja making newbies suffer
15. Would you rather be single and rich or married and poor? - Ssingle and rich!!!1
16. Would you rather be a bum or be a busy person? - busy....
17. Would you give your all in a relationship? - hurm.....
18. Define LOVE. - a happy feeling...chocolate
19. Milk chocolate, white chocolate or dark chocolate? - milk Chocolate~
20. If you played a prank on someone, and he/she fell for the trick, what would you do? - LOL
RULES!These eight people must state who they were tagged by.You cannot tag the person who tagged you.Continue this game by sending this to eight other people.
i really think that there is actually sumthing that is bothering me... but i just cant figure it out as i think there is quite a few things that is actually bothering me now... i hate it when i have this kinda of situation...i will get my work half done, or sumtimes i couldnt get any work started.. its like ur kinda feeling down, but ur trying to put it aside and put a happy face, but deep inside u still dont feel good... but at least i can still blog to let it out a few...
i have a crit session on thursday... and i should start continuing my design now,...but yet im still stuck to this blog posting and the idea to design just wont come out.... i really need a light bulb to appear on the right side of my head now~!
im actually quite nervous for this crit...u know crit session, u think u have done gud enuff, but u actually dont.. sumtimes its kinda hard actually to come out with a design with a big 'WOW' factor...
it gets worse when ur design were not the most favored by the lecturers and go asking u to change here and there... they will go like:
"i dont understand ur concept"
"this space aint rite"
"this was not suppose to be there!"
"do understand what ur doin?!"
"how will u construct ur roof with this kinda form?!"
"u got the size all wrong"
"what have u learn for the past few years?!!"
"i think u should reconsider architecture, ur not suitable for this"
how i wish they would say :
"i can imagine ur building already"
"its just what we wanted"
"u have a strong concept"
"u can proceed and prepare to submit already"
"i love it"
"WOW"
ok ok....now i should go back to my drafting table...eheh
my beloved... the make me smile...yet they can be annoying
i really want to show my nieces and nephews....heheheheh... heres a start....coz i only have these cute lil fellas pics with me rite now...will be showing off sum more later.. aren't they adorable!!!!!!! love em!!!!
am chatting with my sis while im bloggin this....... then theres this photo of food for bukak posa back home in Miri yesterday(saturday).....ergh........ my sis from sibu was visiting my parents in Miri so thats explain the wide range of delicacies on the dining table... and yes, i am J.E.A.L.O.U.S.... HEHEH... wish i was there..at home...with that kinda food...and noises from my nieces and nephews.......... tempting.....very tempting.......hahahahhahaha.... coz for me here, u know la student kan...if not bubur lambuk, bcoz its free at the surau, i'll eat nasik campur....if only i have xtra cash then i'll go buying sumthing gud...hahahahahhaha..i MISS home!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Yerps... we bukak puasa again in the studio.... its officially our second home now...its where we eat, sleep, get our works done, socialise and everything that u can imagine... yeps..that too...heheheh...
today's break of fast was quite different or should i say rather special...eheh...first, because the park amenity department was having their break of fast cum pre-aidilfitri event at our faculty's courtyard.. since my studio is on the ground floor, which means we are on the courtyard level, the hari raya feel kinda meresap masuk into our studio...heheh..u know la, when this kind of event takes place, of course la they gonna play all the lagu raya rite.... lagu sedih and lagu hepi2 oso they play...hehehe...
this stage were decorated with ketupat, lemang, lampu raya, pelita and a mock meriam buluh
when azan was on the air....they gather at the food stations..hahahahah
then, today is oso the day we celebrate our studiomate's birthday..her birthday was yesterday actually but they birtdhay bashed her today..the cake was YUMMY!!!! Of course the must have cake smudging on the face traditon were not forgotten..but only the birthday's girl face were attacked...hahahahah......
oh, i remembered this one time at kim's birthday..... it was a total mess...gonna pay u back sum day kimmster....hahahahah
the YUMMY cake
the birthday girl... she's old!!! hahahah...
then we have this fun 'laugh his and hers ugly i.c photo' session...kekekekekea..... we were running, falling, stumbling and cursing...hahahahha.....luckily my photos were totally safe! ahahahahahahahah...... but what can say? my i.c photos looked damn good..hahahahahah
one of the girl with the ugly i.c photo on the run..hahahah..tekelepek
the leftovers
and as ussual, where there is a camera, or more, there will be the camwhoring session......hhhehehheh
hurm...its almost 7pm now...means its near to our break of fast time... im tired phisically and mentally now... got migrain yesterday and it leaves a scar on my batang hidung due to my cruel massage to ease the pain.... ahahahhaha...
spent most of my day yesterday waiting.... i hate hate waiting.. with my head aching like crazy and waiting for the guys to come for the meeting was really a big 'cobaan' or 'dugaan' for me in ramadhan... but things happen n i cant blame them for everything... but still, those attitudes got to go fellas.....
well, will be blogging later...now, am going to the bazaar... adios amigos
ergh.....stress!!!! first class today was a total hell...... came to class at about 8.40...i know im late but its not my fault!!!!!!!!!the parking spots were full....as i entered, i heard my lecturer dah start bising-bising..barking here and there....then it got really bad where he started shouting and saying all the harsh words....mostly to the foreign students in my class...kesian u know....one iranian girl cried due to the unfortunate event...hehehehhe.....
then i went to my studio, carried out a small meeting with my studiomates, then went to structure class at 2.30.. the class was so boring that i slept at about every 5 minutes...this is where u go sleepy, then fell asleep then u tekejut and wake up..5minutes later, repeat the same thing all over again.....hheheheh
but lucky oso i have the structure class...most of my studiomates who have cleared the suject have to go clean the studio... i should have a before and after photo ya know juat to show u how terrible my studio looked like before the cleaning took place.....will post sum photos of my studio later...coz now am borrowin a friends laptop....
know wut? my eyes merajuk oredi...i have been sleeping in a very bad sequence lately....and as for today, i've almost reach my 24 hours oh not sleeping at ALL...hurm.... i've been stayin uo last nyte finishin up my concept boards and sum stupid bubble diagram for today's crit session...damn..luckily it went well actuall
what can say, its what i have to endure and encounter as an architetcure students.... does it sounds cool??? uwek, hell no.... its your worse nightmare that u can ever imagine.....
dah la today i dint sleep doin the design stuff n all, ada pejumpaan sum more with my student advisor prof nakiah...errrghhh......felt like forever having those long motherly talks with her about how i've been during the past 2 n a half years at this architecture skool.... then she asked me about my current semester....any complaints and stuff.....balik studio, prof AR Hassan's turn plak to berus us...argh............nasib baik he puji me a bit....felt lega oso a bit kan..then he starts shooting again..hahahah....
above is my table where i work, sleep n eat..its my mini home in my studio
hey, im tryin to get myslef sleepy actually..............zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz
above is the environment of my studio.........boring~
so heres radhi from o.a.g....but weird enuff, every time i ambik gamba this guy, mesti tgh angkat tgn...semangat merdeka i guess...ahahaha
i'll post butterfingers pics later k coz its in my frens phone..well, we r stupid enuff juz to carry our phones to the concert n hoping te get cool pictures..hahahhaha...well, sorry for the blurry...hahahah it rhymes!!
selamat berpuasa everyone!!! well, going to update a few stuff now...well, i mentioned that i went to the celcom u.o.x concert rite....well, i went to the concert but got back home with a very bad headache and a heavy fever the next day..daaammnnnn.....worst of all,the day i demam, was sunday means that just before 1st ramadhan....its sad u know...its like i was fasting a day early since i cant eat....my throat hurts like hell...i cant swallow solid stuff but am craving for a bigmac.,...u know la if tommoro posa of coz u want to melantak on d day before kann....but sadly i cant....hahahaha..but still i did not ponteng my puasa laaaa....
well its kinda funny that luck has not been on my side for this past few days...yesterday, which is the first day of fasting, sumthing happened too....i bought maggi punye bubur nasi....so around 7pm started to cook la that bubur nasik...since it sed that it takes about 10 minutes to cook, i suppose its ok to cook at 7...im not in the mood to go out coz im still under a very bad fever u kno... i watched sum tv while i cook the bubur n about 5mnts later i go jenguk la my bubur... to my surprise:- my cooking gas habis......n i was like what im gonna have for bebuka now!!!!! i rushed to kedai n bought a peel fresh...sit quietely n fikir balik why im in such bad luck....hahahah........but i manage to go for terawih and got a free bubur lambuk n 3 bijik kurma... life is fair after all...ahaks...
this stage were decorated with ketupat, lemang, lampu raya, pelita and a mock meriam buluh
the birthday girl... she's old!!! hahahah...
above is my table where i work, sleep n eat..its my mini home in my studio
so heres radhi from o.a.g....but weird enuff, every time i ambik gamba this guy, mesti tgh angkat tgn...semangat merdeka i guess...ahahaha